Atheism, Free will and I

I've been an Atheist for long as I can remember.  It was not some grotesque satanic ritual or an initiation with people dancing in cloaks all around. It was simply when I realized that I didn't believe in a “superior power” anymore. I don't know when exactly it happened but it was definitely sometime after my fifth grade because I remember a small me sitting in front of the little home temple and reciting the “Hanuman Chalisa” 7 times, mother said it brought good luck, I needed that luck on my side that day, it was result day. It was definitely after that because I have never been so devoted to anything in my entire existence  as I was to that "hanuman challisa" that very day.

One day, maybe in sixth grade, I read this article about a woman who was recently raped and then left to die, and she did, die. I thought to myself “why does God allow this happen?” being a huge devotee of god, that I was, I decided that maybe it was god’s way of punishing that woman for some grievous mistake that she did.  Again, in the papers was a news about the rape of an underage girl, I wondered what wrong could she have done that god punished her. NO ANSWER. I had decided that it was enough and I went to my mother, expecting an answer. She couldn't give me one. No one could give me an answer.

Around the same time the internet of my house was being fixed up, I thought that maybe the mighty Google would be able to give me an answer. Upon reading several articles on religion I stumbled upon something called the “free will”. I knew about it. I read articles and articles on it, when I realized that “god” gave us free will. I thought to myself, “was the free will of rapist more important than the life of a child or a woman?” if there is a god, then where is he? Why didn’t he save the child or the woman? Why did he stay there and watch when the life of a child was being taken away shred by shred in the most monstrous way possible? I had no answers. I still don’t. I guess that is why I don’t believe in god anymore because if all that is written in the religious scriptures were true, the god, of our lives, would not be so gruesome and ignorant about the lives of his precious creations.

Now, people judge us, Atheists, call us godless and anti-faith and all of the gory words in their dictionary, but they never tend to ask us that why in the first place we changed our paths towards atheism.

The fact is that the belief in  a certain magic person from the sky is way too overrated, we believe what we can see with our eyes, hear with our ears and touch by our hands. We deal with the facts in hand,the fact being that the so called “god” is more concerned about the free fill of the rapist than he is about the life of a young girl.

I am a proud Atheist, not because I think this is cool, only because I believe that if there was a magic creature living in the sky and we are his creations then he would rescue us from all harms, once and for all.